Monday, November 15, 2010

Life in a nutshell

Almost a month later and I'm feeling excellent. I had a Dr. appointment last week at the radiation department in the cancer center of UCDavis. When I walked back with Jeremy I felt so sad. It's hard to see people in pain and suffering. I wanted to cry so bad but I held it together. I don't have cancer but they want to do radiation on me because my tumor WILL grow back if i don't have it done. As of right now I haven't heard from the center I will be going to, but the Dr's here estimate it will be a 7 week treatment in Loma Linda CA at the university. I don't know when I have to go but I know I have to go for them to meet me and see if I am a qualified candidate, which they already said I am. Then I would have to go back so they could make me my own personal mask of some sort.The treatment itself should only be about 45 minutes long monday-friday and I would be able to come home on the weekends. Now I'm worried about when I would have to start this process. December my baby sister, her husband and my 2 amazing nephews will be here from the 23-29th. I don't want to miss anytime with them. My birthday is on the 28th. February I get married on the 12th. I just feel like I wouldn't be here for the whole wedding ordeal. Getting last minute stuff and just depending on everyone else to help make this thing possible. But I have to focus on my health. I am thankful that they are sending me all the way to LA instead because if I couldn't , they would have to do chemotherapy on me but they said it wouldn't be effective enough.Anyways I'll just post the website to where I MIGHT(almost 100%) will be going.

I just want to thank everybody for checking up on me and keeping tabs to see how i'm doing. I really really really appreciate it SO much. <3  When I find out for SURE the whole story and the dates I will let you all know. until then live life to its fullest !